I don’t know anymore exactly who I am. I’ve lost a good chunk of myself to living a life for people who really don’t miss my presence. I’ve reached out in desperation to those who I believed would be my rock always-only to find the rock is no longer existent. This isn’t a pity party, it’s a very factual observation. And it hurts. It’s painful to lose something/someone you have given you’re entire heart to. Be it friendship or relationship or both. Shame on me. Live and learn. My battles will help someone else overcome theirs I choose to believe.
I do know I’m on the search to regain my identity. God did not create me to be man’s puppet. That was not His plan.
I don’t have the answers. He does. I just pray I’m listening with a humble heart.
I know these few things. I am a mother who loves her children fiercely. I’m not perfect and neither are they. I’ve apologized and asked for forgiveness. I’m sure I will again. In doing that, I’m teaching them the value of humility. It can suck sometimes, but it’s necessary.
I am in love with taking pictures of nature; of the beautiful things God has given us to see everyday. I am His flower trying to bloom. I’m desperately trying to capture gratitude for the little things.
I am an emotional mess who loves too quickly and whose heart shatters too easily. I am a loyal friend who screws up sometimes, but would never intentionally hurt someone. I am the one who wants no one to be hungry and all animals to have a home. I am easily angered at ignorance and blatant disrespect. I’m working on it. I am the people pleaser that feels like they’ve pissed everyone off to the point of dislike. I’m working on that too.
What I am is human. Not perfect, not admirable, not incredible. But I am God’s child and I’m trying to see myself as he does.
I am a victor.
“No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.” Romans 8:37
I am clay wanting to be molded into the greatness God designed me to be for His kingdom.
*pictures courtesy of me 🤗
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Sunsets are amazing. Some are probably more mesmerizing than this. But this to me is just as beautifully made as those others. It’s simple and wonderfully done by our Creator.
Just like He made us.
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Practicing macro at night. Just enjoying what God has give us.
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These scenes make my heart stop. Some take my breath away. Because they are just simple. No fancy photo shopping, no scene changing color programs, and no taking out the goofs.
Not saying there’s anything wrong with that all. I just don’t have those things to use, and sometimes I think it takes away from the real. Just a personal thought.
These butterflies were on a mission. As was I. To sneak up and get a picture. It wasn’t until I got close that you could even see the smaller one. It was a feeling of excitement that I only get when I take my pictures.
See, it’s not about trying to change the point of view. It’s about experiencing the wonder of what God has given us to look at every single day. Getting super close, or the sunset, or the animals, even the yucky insects. I told a few friends it’s amazing how brave I have become because I want that close up!
I don’t yoga or exercise. (No lectures please) Instead I get lost in these moments that many people don’t even bother to take notice of anymore. That absolutely breaks my heart.
Stop and look around and really take notice. See it, smell it, feel it. All these are things some people don’t even have the privilege of experiencing. Don’t take it as nothing.
The book of Genesis talks about how God made all things. And it was good.
**all pictures taken by me 🤗
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