Weighted Blanket

Tonight I’m struggling with my emotions. Not uncommon in those of us with Complex PTSD. I would say I’m in an evening of selfishness. I ordered food, kids are watching television and I’m here in my room. Alone. Listening to the music of Three Days Grace. It consoles me. The lyrics penetrate my concrete walls and I feel a connection of understanding. Weather or not the situations they sing of are similar, who knows. But for me, it helps put my mental thinking into words. Is it all pretty? Of course not.

What I do notice is that I refer back to God. Does a song that has curse words in it praise Him? No. But in the valley I’m in it exclaims it, puts the urgency in there. The urgency of my desperate attempt to self soothe. to find a place of understanding.

Music has always been my place of console. Some just hear a beat, think it’s a cool tune. Sometimes that works. Mostly for me it is a feeling. An outlet, escape, a mental and physical meeting place of peace. It’s my safe place.

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1 Response to Weighted Blanket

  1. XingfuMama says:

    Your post made me think of the psalms. Many of the Psalms are not soothing. They describe deep and at times violent emotions.

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