Contrary to popular belief, I am a people person. I enjoy helping people. What I don’t like is going places and being around people who make me feel less than. This is not something I pull out of my backside. It comes from patterns and behaviors I’ve experienced by some first hand.
So yes there are people I can’t be around. Yes, my anxiety gets the best of me sometimes. Yes, some say I’m flaky because of that. It bugs me, but I’m learning that setting boundaries is ok for me. I don’t always have to place myself in situations that make me uncomfortable just to make the statement known that “I’m the bigger person.”
Most don’t get it cause it’s not their struggle. Most who are close to me think I should “suck it up.” Most think I’m being difficult. Which of course is hurtful. And untrue. But they don’t get it, and sadly there’s not much grace in it.
I can’t change them. But I can protect myself.