Suck My Brain

Playing catch up again. I’ve been in migraine/cluster hell for the last 3 days. On top of a cold. While trying to work. Ever had to cough up a lung while trying to beat your head against the wall? I pray not. It’s horrible. I seriously contemplated banging a hammer against my left temple. Or the eye. But since I couldn’t see or move for that matter, I didn’t accomplish much at all.

Today, we broke down and got some supplements that use to help me. It’s been like 3/4 years since I had them. And now after the first dose this morning, I can walk without stabbing pain. I can breathe. The best thing is that I was able to read with my son tonight-the last 3 nights I was unable to even get up and say goodnight. Talk about mom guilt.

Why do I write this? Because some people have no concept of the pain we go through during these episodes. I thought maybe I was having a stroke. I have heard many people say to quit complaining, you’re being dramatic, it doesn’t hurt that bad, etc. Tell me the next time every step you attempt make you feel like someone is trying to pull your brain through your eye socket with a burning poker-I’ll make sure to tell you to “suck it up buttercup” and move on.

The judgement drives me bonkers-obviously. On that note, I’m so thankful for those that love me and helped me through this. Now my body wants to sleep-like really sleep. I’m hoping it does.