To Rise Under Scared Torment

Getting deep aren’t I? Ha! Just kidding! Kinda?

Trust…ew I know you are cringing at that word. Me too sometimes! Right now you’re going through the mental list of the people and places and things you don’t trust. And you’re justifying the reason why. It’s all good. Well in a way. I know, I know, here I go again. Remember, I’m just as guilty in these things sometimes so conviction goes all around.

A recent sermon at church was learning to TRUST God in ALL things. For we are not called to praise only in the good. And while I know this, I still find myself anxious and asking, “what could possibly be good in this!”

Currently I’m in such a situation. I know the truth will not be spoken. I know lies will be told and the actual facts be twisted. I know information will be withheld so the whole story is not given accurately. And it’s driving me crazy because I have no control over it!

Ahhhhh there’s another taboo word! Control. We all fight this battle. And we ignore the truth.

We are not in control over anything. The only person who has control is God. And when we give him that faith and trust he provides. But in our humanness we don’t like not calling shots. And when we get stubborn, we are not giving God the ability to help us make good choices, and in return we are filled with anxiety and dread. So the fact that I’ve been up the last two days at 4:30 AM is proof that I’m not giving it all to him right now.

Yes I’m praying. Specifically. But I’m not at peace so I’m not letting go. So I will read His word and I will claim it.

God already knows what’s going to happen and he tells us we will not go without being held accountable for those choices.

I’m also learning to do my actions first, and then let the feeling follow. Because we don’t always “feel” like letting go. Oh the tests of our faith. But they are necessary. And I want to not only be obedient, I want to set the example.

Joshua 1:9-Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.

Psalm 9:10-those who know your name trust in you, for you, Lord, have never for sake in those who seek you.

Ephesians 4:25-therefore, having put away falsehood, let each one of you speak the truth with his neighbor, for we are members one of another.

So while I have no control over what another says, I must have faith and trust that with God truth will prevail.

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