I’m no Wonder Woman (unless I’m wondering why I walked into a room), I’m not Doc McStuffins (although I can sew buttons and eyes and tails back on), but in my children’s eyes I appear to be fearless, (though they have seen me jump and scream at particular bugs🤦🏼♀️).
Tonight as I was reading to my daughter about Queen Esther, she piped right in;
HER: Mom, you are brave just like Queen Esther.
ME: (confused) How so?
HER: You keep me safe and you are not afraid of the devil.
WOW! She doesn’t know that I’m just a mom doing the best I can every single day. She doesn’t know that not only have I not saved an entire nation of people, but that I question myself all the time. She doesn’t know how hard I pray over her and her siblings for God to give me wisdom. She doesn’t know how hard I ask God to forgive me for all the things I mess up on a daily basis. She doesn’t know my fears, and neither do her siblings. She doesn’t know that many times I question why God thinks I’m strong enough to be their mother.
AND neither she nor her siblings need ever know that those questions plague me (they will once they become parents).
Regardless of what I think on this human perspective, God says I am worthy. God says He wants me to be their mother. God put me in charge of raising them to help further His kingdom. So while I don’t understand, my children see in me something God sees but I can’t grasp….that I am their Hero. I’m their mom, friend, disciplinarian, diary, counselor, forgiver, their biggest advocate.
And I could not do this without God teaching me by His example, grace, humility, and forgiveness, and storms. So while I look like a mom (middle aged belly, dark circles, flapping thighs-it’s all there) they see something beautiful. So maybe it’s time to start trying to see myself not just how they do, but how my Creator does.
Psalm 56:11 “I trust in God. I will not be afraid.”
25 She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future. 26 When she speaks, her words are wise, and she gives instructions with kindness. 27 She carefully watches everything in her household and suffers nothing from laziness. 28 Her children stand and bless her. Her husband praises her: 29 “There are many virtuous and capable women in the world, but you surpass them all!” 30 Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the LORD will be greatly praised. 31 Reward her for all she has done. Let her deeds publicly declare her praise.